How you doing? ☀️The past few months have been wild, hey?
TLDR: Sharing stories. Musings about being 4 months on T. Liking myself just as I am. I’ve been thinking alot about how the collective public awakening about racism, where people are finally talking about what has always been there, and the global pandemic has affected the people in my life. It’s affected us all differently but I guess I wanted to tell them I’m thankful for them being in my life.
Gender shizzle
I've also been thinking alot about Gender shizzle. Not least because this week its Transgender Awareness week.
Recently I’ve been realising that when it comes to gender there’s not one way to be. I can be as masculine as I want to be as an AFAB (assigned Female At Birth) person, but also that I don’t owe masculinity or femininity to anyone. I’m starting to find some kind of peace within my body as it ages and transitions, without focusing as much on what I’m ‘supposed to look like’ as hey, maybe it’s all drag anyway, and learning to be happy just being me.
I'm not sure if its hella ironic that starting hormone therapy has made me realise I don't need to change anything to be who I am if I don't feel I need to. That said testosterone has helped me become more comfortable in my own body ( I am no longer a stranger and Im looking at my body as I always imagined it to be) and I'm also learning to appreciate what I have always had too. I'm very much enjoying the masculinisation effects and changes to my body that testosterone has brought, and without it I know I'd still be at war with myself, trying to tear myself apart looking for answers to questions I couldn't even muster up..
Its weird that I feel this sense of clarity, now, and perhaps without medically transitioning I wouldn't be feeling the way I do now, kind of at peace with my body. Nothing feels as confusing now. At least not today.
Its weird that I feel this sense of clarity, now, and perhaps without medically transitioning I wouldn't be feeling the way I do now, kind of at peace with my body. Nothing feels as confusing now. At least not today.
I know I'm not a cisgender guy in the traditional sense, and I never will be, but what I do know is that I've always been is a gender diverse person, I was born this way, and maybe that is enough.
So I'm here, taking up space for the people that don't want us to exist, but it's tough because we're not going anywhere, and guess what we're really starting to like ourselves, just as we are.
Sharing our stories as Black people and Gender diverse people connects us, and helps other people make sense of their own experiences.‘If we can accept the validity of there being multiple stories, then we can stop being so threatened by (gender) stories that differ from our own.’ Preach! - meg_john_barker Look after yourself.
Today I feel humbled, lucky, and loved 💙
#ThisIsBliss #ShareBlackStories #QueerBlackFamily #TransgenderAwarenessWeek #enby #NonBinary #tmoc #transmasculine #4MonthsOnTestosterone #lockdown2 #LookAfterEachother #ShareBlackLove
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